Someday I will blog again . . .

You know, cause I’ve still got to write Addison’s 12-month update.  Never mind that she is 19 months now.

Moving has been very trying and very draining and I have felt majorly stressed about so many things — some of which I could discuss if I felt like I had more time and some of which is not really blog appropriate.  I strive to make all aspects of my life both transparent and unified, so I’ve been a bit unsettled for the last several months, feeling a mounting sense of fragmentation.  I can talk about this with this person, but not that person.  I can mention this on my blog, but not that.  It’s an exhausting way to live; I really dislike it and I have spent most of my adult life actively working against that kind of fragmentation.  But sometimes you become entangled in other people’s “stuff” — it becomes part of your life, but you can’t talk about it too much because it’s not just your life and you don’t own it in quite the same way.  Anyone get what I’m saying . . . or am I not being transparent enough?

I am feeling a bit more relaxed this morning than I have been, partly because we got our DMV stuff taken care of yesterday — it’s a funny story but when we got to California we realized that Neal’s driver’s license had expired nearly six months ago! — and partly because now that Neal can drive again, he’s taken the little one away for the morning and I’ve had some time to myself.  I created a current balance sheet to help us make some decisions about our finances now that we are entering a period of no income.  Oh, how love creating balance sheets!  I feel a sort of happy calm that has eluded me lately.  Next, I’m going to create a new budget template.  Oh boy!

Bad news, good news

Bad news:  Addison took her first big spill down the stairs (of which there are MANY in my parents’ split-level house) last night.

Good news:  She was okay . . . and we got our most animated injury-narration to date.  ”Down!  BUMP!!  Whoa!” as she wildly pointed from the stairs to the floor to her head and back.

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Good news:  We did our first family beach trip yesterday while my brother and his family were in town.  Addison loved getting chased by the waves and stayed down at the water for a crazy long time considering that . . .

Bad news:  the water was FREEZING cold.  This was no typical Labor Day beach excursion.  No sun.  Blue lips.  Limbs amputated from frostbite.  But still worth it.

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Bad news:  The beach definitely took its toll and I’ve been pretty much useless since yesterday afternoon.

Good news:  That gave me some long-missed blog reading time in which I read Sara’s post on couple’s Zodiac compatibility.  After reading hers, I had to find mine and Neal’s — which is altogether too racy to post in its entirety (I’m pretty sure there were some crude euphemisms I didn’t even understand).  But I did learn some important things like:

The secret to this magick is to understand how much Aries is always looking for someone strong enough to push back!  That is Aries Heaven, Aries Nirvana, Aries Jannah – someone who saves you from your own excesses, who calls you on your b— s—, who puts you back in your place when you just can’t get it right yourself.  (Aries don’t start out to be obnoxious. They just wind up there half the time.)  Put back in his place –that’s when the Ram turns into the Little Lamb that followed Mary to school.  A Scorpio woman can produce this result with a single look.  Scorpio women are a good mirror for Aries men in that – without even trying – Scorpio women are usually so powerful they scare people.  Not a problem here.  Aries is never scared even when they should be.  You are beginning to see the bounty of this pairing.

How to Attract an Aries Man as a Scorpio Woman:  You can turn up the headlights, girl.  Whereas most men cover their privates and slink out the back door, imagining that you are a castrating maw of dark feminine energy (Joan Crawford comes to mind), Aries is turned on and comes fast forward.

Degree of Marriage:  There is tremendous potential in this couple for marriage.  Neither sign ever gives up on anything so they have a better chance than most to make it last.

A relationship this alive is very  intense.  I think you may feel like killing each other from time to time but the love will never end.

Rating: 10/10

Okay, so maybe I didn’t need to include all of that, but the “castrating maw of dark feminine energy” line was just too classic.  And a 10 out of 10 — that’s pretty good, no?  And to think we did six months of marriage counseling to understand each other better when we could have just read this.