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January 3, 2011

Day of rest

Filed under: Family, Motherhood, Personal — Tags: , , , , — llcall @ 4:00 pm

I’m not sure I’ve ever needed a day of rest as much as I did yesterday.  Thank goodness it’s built into my theology . . . phew.

We’re in the home-stretch of our consultancy contract, our deadline looming large, and the workhorse in me came out to play.  I was sick with a cold/flu/sinus infection/bronchitis (it was hard to keep up with all the morphing symptoms) and still, I was pulling 11 and 12 hour work days.  [I’m pretty sure Neal thought I would be dead by the weekend.]  But that’s just who I am/have been/might have been if ill-health and some quirky decisions didn’t change the entire trajectory of my life . . . a workaholic.  A total and complete workaholic.

So Neal and I have been more or less full-time working parents for about three weeks, as we daily turned the baby over first to babysitters and then to my mom and dad once they arrived for the holidays.  And our impression so far: four thumbs down.  We miss our baby girl desperately, although my longing appears a bit more desperate than Neal’s, coming out in tears and guilt.  He just wants to watch TV again while rolling her the basketball.  I’m a tiny bit comforted by the fact that she’ll never remember that I didn’t spend time with her on her first Christmas or the day she learned to call me mama or the day those sweet mamas turned into anguish as I constantly left to get back to work.  But I think I’ll always remember and it is breaking my heart just a little bit.

So thank goodness for a day of rest to feed my little girl again [she’s finally eating solids!] and hug her often and get lots of “kisses” and watch her take fledgling steps [she can’t put more than two together at a time yet, but it’s fast approaching] and crawl after her around the house and watch her play while passed out on the couch from sheer exhaustion.  I’ve missed her.

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3 Comments »

  1. I totally relate, which is why I’ll never do a semester full-time again! Ever! I’m so glad you guys are moving into the last phase of your project. What a major accomplishment!

    Comment by Jen — January 3, 2011 @ 5:15 pm

  2. Glad you’re almost done! You need some serious lax time as a family!

    Comment by Vickie Blanchard — January 3, 2011 @ 6:40 pm

  3. I know what you mean! That’s why I ultimately had to quit my job with the elderly folks–I just had to spend time with my baby boy! It is definitely heartbreaking for a mother! I am hopeful that the end of the project went well and that it was all completed on time. You and Neal are very deserving of a break and I’m glad that Addison is eating solids for you now! It sounds like she is in that progressing-so-quickly-mom-can’t-keep-up phase, so I’m glad you are finished (?) with the project so your precious energy can be consumed in your cute baby girl!

    I’m so sorry you’ve been sick as well~! I know how awful it is to have to push through all of that junk and try to live off of adrenaline for days/weeks at a time to finish looming projects! Please, get some good rest now so you can finally get “better!!!” (Since I know entirely well–at least physically–never really comes). Miss you all!!~

    Comment by Meg Romney — January 4, 2011 @ 6:03 am


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