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August 30, 2012

Thankful(ly revising)

I spent most of the day working on my revise and resubmit. (Thankfully, my neck is much improved, though still rather achy). I planned to just bang it out yesterday, but that didn’t happen — too many interruptions. And then I thought I would finish today, but Addison definitely had other plans. It is hard to stay focused with so many distractions going on around me. Neal is always telling me that he has no idea how I even force myself to do it — for no pay, no glory, no particular purpose except to finish things I’ve started.

But even though it was rather slow-going today (sometimes it seems harder to revise a paper than it does to write it in the first place, you know?), I was really filled with such a sense of excitement and gratitude. I love my work. Sometimes I love having done my work more than I love doing it, but still, I am blessed to have found such a true passion in life. Something that I could read, write, study, ponder FOREVER and still find new questions I want to ask and problems I want to solve.

And this paper, this really is my baby. Even more than my thesis. Don’t get me wrong, I loved my thesis too (even though at the moment it is little more than a vague memory that I can’t even remember the title of), but this paper is a practitioner-focused piece, which has always been my priority. I want the work I do to impact the way incarcerated people live, work, learn, and are treated. Not in an eventual, trickle-down sort of way, but now, tomorrow, YESTERDAY! And this piece will do that far more than my thesis. I have already been able to discuss the ideas and recommendations with dozens of financial educators around the country who are beginning to work with incarcerated individuals. Even though academic articles in general are read by about 1.6 people, this particular journal has a wider readership because it maintains its focus on helping practitioners do their jobs better.

So even though about 50 times today I thought, WHY am I doing this? Why am I  going back and forth to my computer and wracking my brain about financial capability theory, only to be interrupted every three seconds by getting Addison water and putting her on the potty and listening to her bang on the door while calling out for me? (It was Neal’s care time, but I guess she was bored with him.), I am thankful that I get to do this work. Thankful that I found what I love, that I continue to love what I chose, that I still have the mental capacity to do what is required, and that I can get my laptop to lay sideways just so and still keep my neck at rest while I work. Everyone should be so lucky.

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2 Comments »

  1. I always love reading your opinions:) I’ve nominated you for The Versatile Blogger Award; read about it here: http://carissasfoodblog.blogspot.com/2012/08/amazing-pesto-stuffed-pork-chops.html

    Comment by Carissa — August 31, 2012 @ 4:53 pm

    • Thank you for thinking of me, Carissa! I have never been part of a blog award before, so I will have to get up to speed. But I love that you have been posting pesto recipes lately! I haven’t made any yet, but I am a sucker for pesto and there just happens to be some in the fridge!

      Comment by llcall — September 2, 2012 @ 5:27 am


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